Mid- Point

The summer has reached it's peak for school oriented people. I always consider the 4th the begging of the end.

Thinking of the end of summer makes me think of what goals I set out to get done. I have done some of them but others are lacking. Did not learn to read music this summer or decide what my chosen path is after college ends. But did find some good that I did not expect more of a understanding of my parents and open relationship. Also a great deal of thankfulness of unconditional love and patience, this makes life's bumps less acute.

I found peace with myself and what I want in my life. Such as regularity, happiness, understanding, music, healthy lifestyle, a bearable job, thought, ooo and that little thing of a perfect lover.
Bahahahaha how silly but my list any way.

Starring at the year ahead of what could have been my senior year I have never been more thankful of not graduating on time!!!!! I have some wiggle room about finding jobs and living arrangements.

But enough of that boring guff and on to more important things like my first ever music festival !!!!!!!!! Three days of nothing but music, adult beverages, good company, no responsibility but to have fun, bikinis with cut offs and ray-bans.

In tradition of Christmas in July I have also already started my Christmas list it goes like this 1. Tall blond with deep blue colored eyes       2. Leather suitcase/ backpack  3. Leather fringed jacket  4. If santa is over abundant a gold ship necklace.    Yes I am sure that all of this will fit perfectly under the tree.

Love, hmmm?

    So there have been millions upon millions of stories, poems, songs, movies, sayings, advice and books about love.  How to be open to it, How to make love last, healthy love vs bad love, and How to find love all these topics covered and more within all of these sources listed above.  But when you find that love bug or even think that you have found it there is never enough advice, never detailed just right, or advice that builds your confidence and bravery concerning the love pursuit.  So every time you feel like a complete babe in the woods.  Expect for all of the past mistakes you made with your past love interests to way over you, so this does nothing but wreck havoc for that confidence or bravery needed to be successful in appealing to another mate.

    To overcome all of these hang ups and fears is something to be greatly admired even celebrated even if the results are not exactly what is desired. If there is growth and knowledge gained then the whole process is worth the risk of putting your self out there for someone you love.  But I am cynical of all of this advice and stories that makes admitting love and pursuing it as a easy and ending with a fairy-tale they lived happily ever after. IT IS HARD TO DO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then once you do it that is the moment of truth where this is deemed a win or loss. All of this comes down to rejection or acceptance of you. SCARY !!!!!!!!!!!!


But to love you must be brave mabey this is what the toll charge is for the marvelous gift of love?



Which to be???????

Music is part of the soul !!

I have realized that through all that I experience nothing can touch my soul like a song can.  One song can make you recall a certain moment in time of your life and place you back there once again, also you make new memories all of the time with your current listening choice.  Music has the ability to totally shift your mood for the day or the moment.  This power of music is known but often over looked.  Every Spring time I am reminded of the power of music once more, I cling to it to carry me through my Spring Fever and into the the Summer.

Fall hopeless into your everyday reality and see who is near you that is worthy of the love. 

Bye My Peeps !!

Preception

Today I re-realized how my perception of life and all things is constantly changing. Generally I don't realize that it has changed until something of my past comes and reminds me that I used to think completely different about everything.  I am extremely thankful that change is possible and growth is achievable. Not all change is good but it does promote some new growth.

Love is blooming everywhere in the spring. With people across the board.

So here is sappy kissy pics ! Go get it, it's Spring and Summer is coming !!!!!!

Growth is certain ! 

Spring Break in February ??

Today is the official start of my Spring Break!  It means I have time to do all the task I have been putting off while at home.  The official list is catch up on reading for classes, write papers, start projects, settle claims with insurance companies (not unlike Christmas break), clean house/car, and the cherry on the cake FASFA.  But I have lived through midterms!!!

On the positive end I may get to BBQ, cook, Yoga, practice guitar, and read a book that was not assigned in class while at home, all of which I have missed greatly.  I am going to take this time and re-center/focus life and enjoy family.  So I may not be spending my time in the sun getting tan and partying the night away, I am going to get allot done in February in Virginia.  After turning 21 and loving all the privileges of being an adult it has been a great increase on responsibility end as well.  But that is for another time.

Free time or an illusion of it

After quiting a job the one big perk of it is that you now have opened up your schedaul. But there is an illson that happens to it that you think you now have more free time than you had previously which is kinda true. But not ever to the extent that you think it is. So you go out have fun for a night only to realize the next morning you actually have doubled your next two days work load. Also that you are no longer able to consume the same amount of Alcoholic drinks as you perviously could. So you end up hung over and over worked for the rest of the week.

But today is Friday and I have work to catch up on, so I am going to solve this issue by partying Saturday morning and night to make up for lost time today. This is my amazing critical thinking skills I have gained by higher education. 

Liberation

Today I have stood up to the man per-say and resigned from my job.  It was an America Beauty moment of awakened resistance.  I was tired of being oppressed and verbal abused by our faulty management.  So I with other calm, balanced, and cognitively active coworkers decided to finally stick to our employers. WE QUIT at the same time 4 out of ten there is a massively understaffed building now and all that is to blame for it is bad management.  I have never felt freer and happier; it is like being awakened after being in a self imposed coma.

Doing what is right is never an easy thing and is generally misconstrued by your peers.  SO go forth and wake up to today, reality, hope, truth, promise, honesty, self worth, and enlightenment.