Monday

I got the Mondays and bad. Tons of work to be done and little to no energy to do any of it.  As a result the day has been spent mostly fighting the urge to sleep and trying to focus on a paper. So naturally that consists of 3 hours of Facebook, looking at shoes online, reading newspapers, deciding to grow my hair out to really long, also looking at jewelry online, and deciding to down size my cloth collection considerably. Now I am even writing a blog to delay the writing of paper. But I have an almost uncontrollable desire to party until my room looks like this one.

So now I am going to go workout to focus on my paper later on tonight !!!!!

WOW

What a week! This was the first actually whole week worth of classes. What a week it was coworkers getting fired as well as the entire staff having there asses chewed and nawd on till there was not even ass bones left but bone powder. As always happens in life when things go wrong in any organization, finger pointing, blame rolling down the authority hill until it hits the bottom after building enough momentum to take out a content, and then the aftermath of the disaster ensues. I am now one of the big girls that can take a verbal whippen like no other from not only my direct boss but also his boss.

But I have moved on from this point of unfortunate circumstances with the help of the healing power of Mexican food and cheap Marguerites !!!!!

Then proceed to completing my fun list for 2011 oh yes I have not forgotten about this golden list ! I am now enrolled in guitar lessons and back on track with what I want to do for my life be a lawyer. Despite the huge challenges that I face in this career choice. 1.) Extreme competition 2.) I lack skills with English language 3.) Lawyers are currently having issues finding work after getting out of law school 4.) While the costs of going to law school have never been higher 5.) Also undecided what field I wish to go into. But despite this massive obstacles in my way I have always had and unnatural attraction to business suites, skirts, shoes, and briefcases. So I set out on this path with no divine knowledge of where I will
end up but hopeful but possible delusional.

Boat the Tote

So it is the season for the long time honored tradition for college students called partying, getting crunk, or raving. I decided to partake of this tradition this past weekend which is unusual for me, I usually am a studious little student. So I am at this party having a great time until at 1 am there is a knock on the door that sounds authoritative. So naturally I run and hid like a three year old. When I remerge everyone is scrambling to hide the beer and other items found at a party from what I perceive to be the CA's. So I grab my bags head out the door and proceed to go to my dorm under the watchful eye of a officer of the law in his car. I get back to my dorm and all my residents are up and in the hall wanting to talk to me about hall activities. So here I am at one trying to pass for sober in front of my residents long enough to get to my door. I finally breath once I get in my room. In the morning I wake up and go to breakfast find my party buddies and find out that the knock at the door was actually 4 cops not CA's. I ran from the cops something that is entirely new experience for me.

 I lived to fight another day !!!!!!

BAMF

I am not always a BAMF but sometimes I raise to the occasion and surprise my self when I do. When Co-workers are not pulling there weight in a project the dilemma of what to do, I have given up on the idea of being sweet about it this gets you no where and fast.  But today this went down with one coworkers blaming another coworker about not doing their work just to distract me from the fact that they had not done their part.  So I went all BAMF on them and told them they didn't have to be a part of the project if they didn't want to contribute. Then the story changed and quick. Young-fellow you don't take any guff from them swine.

This is a take no BS Friday also Lee/Jackson day. So I am going to go celebrate it all with wine and a book.

Snow The Love and Need

Snow is a very magical mysterious thing when you are a child it means freedom from the imprisonment of school.  It means you get to sleep in and spend all day with your friends having snowball fights and sledding in it ! You play in the snow until your hands are so cold and wet you think they might fall off. The best day of the year just because it is unexpected and a surprise.

So on the eve of a possible snow day I am very hopeful that I will once again receive a snow day.

I have been back at work for a total of two days.  I am already at the point of frustration that I am tempted to tell my bosses that I hope they could replace my position with someone that poses less brain cells and is as corrupt as they are. So good luck finding that. They all prance around so entitled and drunk with power over causing suffering and misery to all under their impotence authority.  So I have decided either I am going to have to return to using narcotics and drinking daily to endure this tortures position or hide in my room like a bat in a cave and only emerge for classes.  Unexpectedly this semester classes are going to be the highlight as a selection of challenging but engaging subjects.  

So I am frustratedly going to call it a day and hope to wake up tomorrow from this horrible dream with my surroundings covered in snow !

Musica

I have been exploring all different kinds of music lately such as Professor Longhair. He is truly amazing, I am feeling Blues/Cajun type music lately. It is a big step from my usual alternative/ popish music. But the difference is what is drawing me to it, not to mention the deeper, dirtier lyrics. The level of musical skill on these albums surpasses the modern day for the most part. I have been also listening to my old favorites that I loved at age 6 like Otis Redding and Ray Charles.

So all in all I am in the mood to travel southward for good music, people, and food. I am in the mood for a certain kind of place that is home to all that I am seeking. The answer is New Orleans home of the blues, cajun, and the fun loving time and people that all should have. So until I have the time to go I must just day dream of it or build that dream in my current reality.

Lists !

Making lists is a skill that I am becoming skilled at. I make list of things to do, places to go, people to meet, goals to be accomplished, and things to buy. But the list and list making is a long honored tradition in my family it is almost like our family seal.

Ex. Todays List
1.) Call Insurance companies 2.) Finish a paper 3.) Work out schedule for next semester 4.) Balance check book 5.) clean up

But list making never seem to have elements of fun in them. List are always made up of tasks that we avoid doing or want to put off. It is always lists of dread. But I am going to start making lists of fun things to do. Kind of like a buck list but really a Fun List of 2011 !

1.) Become a really good guitar player.  2.) Learn to ski on black diamond slopes.  3.) Live more in the moment. 4.) Learn 2 new different kinds of card games. 5.) Go bike riding and swimming everyday this summer.  6.) Learn to Kayak. 7.) Learn to dance proficiently.

Okay I am ready to commence with fun list as soon as today's list gets done.  Here is my inspiration on this cold wintery day.

End of the Winter Break

Ending the winter break is like jumping off of a boat into the Antarctic ocean. It takes some readjusting, pain, and willingness to suffer for freedom. But it is good to go back to making your own schedule and having freedom of choice of whom you wish to spend your time with. Spending time with family over the holidays is always something to be short lived.

For the New Year I have many goals for the 2011 year.
1. To care less.   2. To get a summer Job out of my hometown.   3. To decide a carrier choice.  4. Learn to play the guitar.

Hope everyone had a great holidays with lots of spiked eggnog !